When is it That You Become 'Someone I Used to Know'?
Well, it's one of my favourite times of year and although it's all pretty exciting and Halloween is in the air, I can't help but feel a little blue. Recently I've been thinking a lot (hey what else is new) about some things I never really thought I'd ever have to think about. These are varied in themselves, but the thought at the foremost of my mind a lot of the time, is how far I have drifted away from virtually everyone I used to be close to.
It's funny, at school you have three different categories of friends. There's those people whom you see now and then, and who seem like really nice people, but who are really just aquantances who you say hi to in the corridors. Then there are those friends, whom you wouldnt really arrange to see outside of school (although you secretly want to) but who are really cool to talk to and you get on well with when you see them. Then. There are those friends. Those people who don't come along that often, who make the day bearable for you and who you never get bored of and who you want to see even when you aren't at school. Those special people whom you can never imagine being without, and who make you feel good, because you know that they feel the same way. These are the people that naively we think we will know for the rest of our lives, but recently I've come to realise that it's just not true. When we leave school, we all leave with good intentions and the words 'keep in touch' are never far from our lips. The thing is though, that soon you come to realise that that's all they are. Words. You come to see that although you still want with all your heart, to see these people and to still be a part of their life, it's just not possible anymore, and that ultimately they don't feel the same way anymore.
I guess it is kind of naive after all to think, that these people will move on and start on their different paths in life, and still have time for you. It becomes understandable in your mind, to think that people move on and don't want to be held back by remnants of their past. And then your mind becomes clearer and it's in these moments of clarity, that you discover that you're really just telling yourself that you understand, so as to make it easier on yourself. When in reality, you really don't understand how someone who you spent such a long and significant time in your life with and who really was, all you wanted, all you needed, and your everything, how to them you can simply become, 'Someone I used to know'.
It's funny, at school you have three different categories of friends. There's those people whom you see now and then, and who seem like really nice people, but who are really just aquantances who you say hi to in the corridors. Then there are those friends, whom you wouldnt really arrange to see outside of school (although you secretly want to) but who are really cool to talk to and you get on well with when you see them. Then. There are those friends. Those people who don't come along that often, who make the day bearable for you and who you never get bored of and who you want to see even when you aren't at school. Those special people whom you can never imagine being without, and who make you feel good, because you know that they feel the same way. These are the people that naively we think we will know for the rest of our lives, but recently I've come to realise that it's just not true. When we leave school, we all leave with good intentions and the words 'keep in touch' are never far from our lips. The thing is though, that soon you come to realise that that's all they are. Words. You come to see that although you still want with all your heart, to see these people and to still be a part of their life, it's just not possible anymore, and that ultimately they don't feel the same way anymore.
I guess it is kind of naive after all to think, that these people will move on and start on their different paths in life, and still have time for you. It becomes understandable in your mind, to think that people move on and don't want to be held back by remnants of their past. And then your mind becomes clearer and it's in these moments of clarity, that you discover that you're really just telling yourself that you understand, so as to make it easier on yourself. When in reality, you really don't understand how someone who you spent such a long and significant time in your life with and who really was, all you wanted, all you needed, and your everything, how to them you can simply become, 'Someone I used to know'.
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